As I’m sitting cross-legged on my bed, with my kitten, a wave of excitement and nostalgia come over me as I add, remove, and mix songs for Christine’s yoga-spacejam. Today was a brand new day for me on multiple levels. I slept decently for the first night in weeks and woke up in a new light. I felt confident. Finally, my hard work and effort had paid off. I was on my way out the door to a hot vinyasa yoga class with the energy of a new job opportunity swirling around me. I have felt so much support lately and now I finally feel like it has paid off in the best way.
I woke up and made a cup of tea. Christine gave me this tea, Shanghai Orchid, and I am completely hooked. Floral and fresh and warm. Exactly what I wanted today to start out like.
I got into my car and in the midst of trying to scramble and put away lonely cds, I found a ‘Feel Good Disco for Chelsea from Sean’ mix. I was given this mix almost two months ago and I had failed to listen to it yet. Well. Today was a new day and I immediately put it in. Imagine the best mellow, spaced-out, loving, yoga songs - and there you have it. I felt so full of gratitude.
I walked into my hot vinyasa class, with my mom, and experienced an amazing class that completely kicked my ass. I love when I can sweat, mindfully check-out, and laugh all in the same class. It reminded me of why this past summer I did yoga every single day, if not twice a day. It reminded me of why I’m alive and what my purpose is. I felt nourished and loved - by me.
The rest of my day consisted of an apple and brie sandwich, playing with my cats, and listening to music. Here I am.
Here, I am.
I feel, finally, that my mind is quiet. Sure, I am daydreamer. That is for sure. But I don’t feel this sense of urgency in everything else to unfold and happen right now. I feel content. I am beyond happy that I have a new job starting next week. I am inspired again to continue my yoga practice. I feel so loved by my boyfriend and best friends. I feel comfortable here in Minnesota. I’m not as anxious.
I want to focus on:
loving everyone in my life. extra.
developing an in-depth and consistent daily yoga practice.
holistic health and skincare education.
experiencing living life in saint paul.
Who knows what the world will bring me. Hopefully, a handful of goodies I can bring with me back to the mountains someday. I would love to return there on a peaceful note with my loved ones.
Time is precious… my plan right now is to embrace that. To breathe, focus, and love. Over and over again.